I cannot do it, I entreat you to reconsider your decission,[1] this is entirely contrary to what Doctor Gezelle told Monsieur Vercruysse[2] only last Thursday. he said he had told you he would continue my confessor, & that I could go to the Sisters of Charity only to stay here for 2 or 3 weeks longer.
he even told Madame[3] to tell me I need not go again to confession untill[4] I got to Bruges & could get to him. Therefore I am acting upon this, for I can't go to another stranger, you forget how very different my position is here out of the convent, all Priests don't understand it & the last Priest upset me. it is easy for a Nun in her Convent to change or for a secular person - I shall find soon means of earning enough to pay for washing, & they will take me for the same Pension asp2here. Monsieur will pay my fire, & I have enough by me to begin to pay for washing untill[5] I get a lesson or two & some sewing, dont leave me here I'll lose all I have gained. Father Gezelle will hear me he says so himself. or I am to wait till I can go to him
I shall be so unhappy if you dont change me. I need not see your Niece or tell anyone else I am a Nun only the Superior
Please write to me dear Mother the Sisters of Charity will take me in a few days. I can't understand this change.