At last I have got your second Bill paid at Burns & Lambert. I now forward you the 2 receipts for the same - My beloved Edmund was in you debt £ 10-8s-1d 1/2 so that I now have a balance in hand for you £ 1-12s-9d 1/2 how shall I forward it to you -[2] I hope I have settled your little matter (as a good Mother of yours), I only wish I could often do little things for you but you with one other are far far away from me. I shall not leave the Lodge till June[3] so you are safe to write here till then, and when I do leave I will be sure to write and let you know -
My last letter from Rome I received on Monday Thursday written & posted the Saturday before Palm Sunday, which day my Edmund was going into retreat till Wednesday morningp2& in the afternoon of the same day the great functions of Holy week began at the Popes Chapel by Tenebrae[4] Easter Monday morning early the College was to start off for Monto Porzio[5] their country seat in the mountains, and remain till next Saturday, when they return to Rome and then begins the hot weather & the hard work till the end of July, then they return to Porzio for 3 free months - My next letter will give me all particulars of Holy week, Edmund says (I have not written to Mr Gezelle again yet but will do so soon - My kindest regards to him when you write) I do not my Father make promises to pray for you & not keep them Daily are you remembered in a poor Childs unworthy prayers, Pray for me the hand of Almighty God is resting Heavily upon me in the shape of Temptation, I cry while I write this, because it is all so sad; not that I do not hope in the Mercys of my Redeemer, I do Hope, I do try to love Almighty God - What it is to commit sin & what it is to atone for sin - Do not scold me in your next letter, when I write to you I must open my mind a little - Try & write me a few lines soon - I wish you a happy blessed Easter - Mary Anne was so pleased when I told her you desired to be remembered to her & that she was to be a good girl, I do keep her out of sin & try & talk to her for her good She desires her best respects to you - I do try to be good myself, though my path is very thorny, it is hard to have worked years for others, & then for Charity to keep you at last - My family take very little notice of me & it is all very lonely, I only say this to you my own Father I do not wish to murmur, I feel I deserve a thousand times more than what is given me - Pray daily for me, you will I am sure my Father & Child. God bless you -
Father try & write your Child Fanny a few lines soon