I am sorry that I cannot come and wish you many happy returns of your feast-day[1] but I can do so at least in writing. That I do wish you every happiness I think you know already, but I feel sorry not to be able to see you on your feast, and although I am better I think I ought to stay at home such a day as this. So wishing you a happy feast again and again
P.S I am afraid that I am not at all as regular in my duties as I ought to be but everything seems to go against mep2and I have no heart for anything now. I know it is of no use struggling against my destiny, but my feelings are too strong to conquer. I hope dear father, you pray very hard for me, for I am very miserable[2] and hardly know how to control myself at times and it is hard to live without sympathy. So pray father, do you not forget me.