I regret that my letter had anything to do with keeping you up I am also very sorry for any other bad effect it may have had. I wrote whatever I wrote to comply with your wish and I thought and still think the time was come that I might speak out without reserve. I am sorry to say you must know what and who I really am. A priest is not framed and shaped and prepared for the best part of this world, he is (too much perhaps!) cautionned against the worst that may come. I just wrote: "too much perhaps" I should have said there may be a deficiency on the other side consisting in not being sufficiently prepared to distinguish at once and to appreciate to its value the good he may meet with. Father Eyre S.J. told me one of his greatest temptations was to be led to believe there was no such thing as virtue This temptation I never had still I can easily understand its possibility. I never intended to reprove you for anything you may have said in talking to me never once; nor is my phrase about the construction others might have put on your words meant to imply indirectly that I ever should have constructed them in any but in their real and to me and yourself most valuable meaning; it may look like that therefor I said I trusted you with the mistakes etc p2and when I said I was agreably disapointed then I was not disapointed in my opinion of you but in finding the rules laid down in such matters failed and disapointed me, indeed, God knows how agreably. There is one thing very good in this and it is that if it had been really a construction of mine you would have freely forgiven me would not you? I may have written: forgive my suspicions in plural and I believe that stupid s did all the mischief; I tell you my suspicions and it is a relief I sometimes catch you as I did when you told me persons noticed my absence and asked you why I did not come; sometimes you catch me as in the ink-and-tears question where I suspected wrong and again just lately; still taking it at the word there would be no playing with spiritual things in that especially not to have your own way, that own way consisted in wishing me to come to see you well there was no harm in that surely, have your own way by all means. It takes a good deal of shifting about before one can make to things fit even when they are made to fitp3exactly so we are trying hard to understand one anothers misunderstandings; it is hardly possible that a great deal of instruction should not be the result both for me and for you. By the bye I do not think your spirit is “prouder than I think it to be". The apostle I quoted is St Paul; if you like to read it which I would advise you to do it is in the I to the Corinthians chapter the 7th down to the 11, and again same chapter verse 29 to the last which you may take as if I said it to you.7 in the 9th verse to burn is always explained to burn by immoral desires and be in danger of sinning8